I find it hard to believe

Today will be 30 years since my little girl killed herself. She’d be in her mid forties.

Holy flaming shit, what a nightmare.

On the other hand, my oldest son will soon be 39 years old. I could have that wrong; birthday math was never my strong suit. People who were born in the year 2000 will never have trouble remembering how old they are.

Everything is really joy. Go figure.

I’ve taken down all the draft pages of my book/ story.

I’ve completed the first book. My next step will be to get some folks to read through it and look for glaring errors. I plan to self publish soon. I simply have no clue on how to proceed with submitting it to an actual publisher. I will soon disclose how to obtain it once I navigate the process.

The first book in the series is called Maj and the Shadow Makers. I’m actually super pleased with it. There are many changes and additions since I last offered a draft version.

Book 2 will be Maelgwyn’s Journey, Book 3 is Bad Carl and the final book, unless I think of something else, will be Overthrow the Stars.

I have a new song:

(this is actually a very positive song)

Loving is a terrible thing

When I look out on a tree

with its branches slowly waving

I can tell the wind is moving things around

When the trunk is lying down

and the branches are stripped of leaves

I suppose there’s been a hurricane in town

Ch:

Anyone might say I’m beaten

I would have to disagree

I know the game was over at the start

Now it seems you finally

have got me where you wanted me

Go ahead and see

if you can break my heart

I used to fear

what waited in the shadows

lurking in the places without light

Now I know the darkness holds

no hint of greater evil

You are the only one who waits

out in the night

Anyone might say I’m beaten

I would have to disagree

I know the game was over at the start

Now it seems you finally

have got me where you wanted me

Go ahead and see

if you can break my heart

Bridge:

Everyone says love

will pull you through

and that is what

the troubadours

all sing

But everything born

in this world will die

Loving is a terrible thing

I stand at the edge

You’ve got all the exits covered

Now I will submit in every way

I will not flinch

I’ve no will to resist you

I offer my surrender

on this day

Anyone might say I’m beaten

I would have to disagree

I know the game was over at the start

Now it seems you finally

have got me where you wanted me

Go ahead and see

if you can break my heart

Go ahead and see

Go ahead and see

Go ahead and see if you can break my heart

I have another one you may have missed:

Shivariff

Also, Formless

Here is one hardly anyone has seen- 11 views in the past year.

See all my poorly produced recordings here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgSEOjBhQekrOvEkN7B0voQ

Happy April, everyone.